Bittersweet

Friday night was my first time away from Remy (for more than 15 mins).  The last Twilight movie came out Friday night so my gal pals and I went out for dinner and then to the movie.  Leaving Remy for the first time was bittersweet.  I was excited to hang out with my friends without all the kids around and have some actual grown up talk but I also missed him terribly and wondered if he was doing okay with Phil.  I know Phil can take care of him just fine but still...  I wasn't there.  I did pretty good I think.  I cried when I was leaving and on my way to meet the girls but when I got there all was fine.  I thought about him the entire night though so it was hard for me to concentrate on our conversations and the movie.  I'll get better, I promise.  The first time is hard though!  Why is it so hard for the mother to leave her baby for the first time and the fathers don't have a hard time at all and don't get why we do?  I mean look at this face!!

Thank god he was still awake when I got home.  I ran in the house, dropped my shit and grabbed him out of Phil's arms.  Haha.  Next time I leave him will be on Friday when I go Black Friday shopping.  I'll be away probably twice as long!!!  Ugh.  Oh well, it's helping me to prepare for when I go back to work.  At least the first few times I'm leaving him it's for something fun.

On a different note, I forgot I had little booties for him that rattled when he kicks.  I put them on him yesterday and he seemed to really like them!  He was kickin up a storm.  :)